Post 07: letting go
There’s all types of reasons someone might lose sleep at night … forgot to do something for work? subtract 1 hour. Realize you have to go to the bathroom? subtract a few minutes to get comfy again … but when there’s something drastic happening in your life leaving you restless? Good luck catching up. Get the coffee going.
Everyone has a story they don’t tell, so it’s more common than not to have something weighing on your heart … but feeling like your hands are tied behind your back, unable to do anything, is something entirely different.
This is around the time you hear people start to say things like “hand it over to God”, “you have to let it go and trust that everything will be okay in the end”, “it’ll work itself out like it should.” Maybe they’re right, but it’s not always that easy.
The problem with letting go is that it requires surrendering, and to be quite honest, I have no clue how to do that. I know that I’m supposed to hand everything over to God, but how? We put so much energy into what we can’t control and I’m finding that letting go of the reins is a lot more difficult than I would like.
I keep reminding myself of something that I heard a few months ago which is that you can’t receive with closed hands.
How can I receive what I’m praying for without first being able to let go of what’s holding me back?
The truth is, I’m holding on for the same reason most people probably do - I’m scared to death that if I let go, it’ll never be the same. I’ll feel like I could’ve done more to save the situation, but that’s where God comes into play. Our waiting seasons are meant for us to grow closer to Him and lean into prayer even more.
You can’t live the life God made you for, while holding on to something he hasn’t made you for. We were made for a greater purpose. I may be struggling, but
“Those who sow with tears will reap songs of joy, those who go out weeping, carrying seeds to sow, will return with songs of joy”